self-directed

adjective2

1. •
   Directed, independently by oneself without external control or constraint; directed for oneself.
2. •
   Directed at oneself.

   • I see a lot of self-directed anger on the part of the straight wives: What's wrong with me that I can't keep this man attracted to me? What's wrong with me in the first place for attracting a gay man? — 1976